Wow.
Well as if I needed another reason to not drink as much as I do. This weekend definitelyproved that. So no more drinking for awhile, because I cannot deal with another weekend like this one. Wow. So I kissed a guy on Friday, who was dating my best friends roommate, who then completely ignored me Saturday, causing the downward spiral of drinking until almost the point of vomiting. Oh captain, I really blame you for the problems of this weekend. I think the worst part was how terrible I let this guy, who is actually really lame, make me feel about myself. I didn’t even really like him, but I let him ruin my self esteem. When I say ruin, I mean it. I was a mess. I really need to work on having a positive outlook on myself. How can anyone like me, if I don’t like me? Arrrggg. So annoying.
Ok but there were positive moments from this weekend. I did not go and get sheetz food after drinking. I did not allow myself to eat badly just because my friends were. I only drank soda when I was consuming alcohol. Ok thats about it on the positives though.
Here’s to having a good week, and not dwelling on how lonely and sad I am.
Just me updating my weight lose goals. Essentially I am aiming for my inside to match my outside. I want to not be the fat best friend anymore, I want to be the leading lady! :DAs a side note I am a total Tumblr creep. I like to follow a lot of people and read about their weight loss journey. So sorry in advance.
Starting Weight: 310.3 (Ouch)
Week 1: 307.3
Week 2: 306.3
Week 3: 304.5
Week 4: 305.0
*insert super long break
Week 5: 303.1
Total Loss: 7.2 lbs
Short Term Goal: Be under 300 by June
Long Term Goal: 180
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Not weight related: I am a liberal language enthusiast, who loves horror movies, terrible tv, and partying. Other loves include bubble gum pop, and being sarcastic.
