Trying to Lose.

Thoughts on Adulthood.

So technically I have been considered and adult for three years now. I certainly don’t feel that way. I am such a fuck up. I really can’t seem to keep anything under control. I have no idea how to keep on finances. I needed to get my car inspected a month ago and had no idea. I just applied for a new license (it expired too long ago to mention). School eludes me most of the time. I felt so good today because I made the realization that I can, and will lose weight. Then I get smacked in the face by reality telling me that I can’t keep anything else under control so how can I do this. Sometimes I just get so frustrated. I wish I could just sleep until everything would go away. I suppose that is my problem. I always run away from things when they get difficult, or confusing.

Tomorrow I will begin to get things under control. Plus its my last day of class before spring break. I am going to try to keep things together.

On a seperate note according to Daily Plate, I ate exactly 1200 calories today. Thats good because I resisted eating because I was stressed. Which that in itself is an amazing thing. I am the biggest stress eater ever.